Celebrate with me...

Praise God. I can’t believe this day is here, but I am so grateful and thankful to God that it is. These past four years at my current job (well a little over four years) have been a roller coaster. I was unemployed for a while (it felt like forever), worried about paying bills, went through a temp agency, and then got hired not even a few weeks later. At this job I was threatened that I would lose my job just about every day by my direct manager for well over a year or two. Though, through all of the ups and downs I always believed… Jeremiah 29:11 “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”  So many times I just wanted to throw in the towel, give up, but that’s not me. I knew that even though this is not my dream job, God wanted me to be here for a reason. Throughout these four years, I’ve seen so many people get let go (I didn’t agree with some of the ones that were let go), and I also saw many people quit, I very much agreed to one person quitting in particular. Well any who, the morale of the company got better and now, four years later, it is my turn to say good bye. This has been a very interesting chapter/season in my life. OH BOY, I can’t wait for this next season to begin with our Little Gabriel Jeremiah. Being a Mother is one of my dreams and it is coming true and I will still continue to pursue sign language (that is another one of my dreams). People, be patient, keep your eyes on Jesus, God has a plan for you, to prosper you and not to harm you, to give you a hope and a future. I truly believe that; for me and for you too. Celebrate with me! This is my last day at work. God is so good and Faithful!

Rejoicing Comes in the Morning

Ecclesiastes 3:1-8, 11-14 NIV

There is a time for everything,and a season for every activity under the heavens: a time to be born and a time to die,a time to plant and a time to uproot, a time to kill and a time to heal,a time to tear down and a time to build, a time to weep and a time to laugh,a time to mourn and a time to dance, a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,a time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing, a time to search and a time to give up,a time to keep and a time to throw away, a time to tear and a time to mend,a time to be silent and a time to speak, a time to love and a time to hate,a time for war and a time for peace.

He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the human heart; yet no one can fathom what God has done from beginning to end. I know that there is nothing better for people than to be happy and to do good while they live. That each of them may eat and drink, and find satisfaction in all their toil—this is the gift of God. I know that everything God does will endure forever; nothing can be added to it and nothing taken from it. God does it so that people will fear him.

Remembering the scratched out dates on my calender, counting down till our Little Meat Ball due date. This time around we would have been in a new season with our Little Meatball.

At this moment... sorrow runs through my veins (just being real).

I know there is a time for everything under the sun. But when I am in that season of

death, weeping, mourning and war, I'm not to happy to be in that season. I know God is building us up, and making us stronger, that is where my happiness comes from.

The Lords strength.

If it wasn't for God, Peter and prayers... It would be damn near impossible for us to get through this season. I have to remember, to get to the end of a season, we need to go through it. No one said it would be easy, but I'm glad that I'm not alone.

"Weeping may stay for the night, but rejoicing comes in the morning." Psalm 30:5b

Excited for the morning.

No discipline seems pleasant at the time

Counting calories and working out might be a bit of a struggle. Not because counting is hard, there is this program that I use online that does the counting for me, it's pretty cool. Mostly it's a challenge on the weekends and hanging out with friends during the weeknights. I have to remind myself, when I get tired of portioning my food or letting people know I would prefer this food instead of that food, I have to remember this:

"No discipline seems pleasant at the time, but painful. Later on, however, it produces a harvest of righteousness and peace for those who have been trained by it." Hebrews 12:11

This really is not all for me, but for my future children, grandchildren and great grandchildren. I start now, God willing I will be able to hold my great grand children.

Starting you might get frustrated because you don't see the results fast, we need to be patient and not fall into the instant gratification that we see in the world (I want it now and pay for it later). I have fall in in that many times in my life.

So in a year, the pay off will be well worth it. I also have to remember, I need good sleep. Poor sleep really influence how my next day will be. Of course I can choose to have a good attitude, but it is harder when all you can think about is sleeping, it really doesn't help you to do that 110% at work you strive to do each day.

Cookies

It is hard when stuff in your day does not go right...sometimes I just want to turn to a Fresh warm cookie. Cookies was sent to my work today and yes it is in plain site. But so is my belly LOL. So I choose not to eat the cookies.

1st day of one year. Cant wait to get fit and fab!

My soul- Psalm 103

Psalm 103

¹ Praise the LORD, my soul;
all my inmost being, praise his holy name.
² Praise the LORD, my soul,
and forget not all his benefits—
³ who forgives all your sins
and heals all your diseases,
⁴ who redeems your life from the pit
and crowns you with love and compassion,
⁵ who satisfies your desires with good things
so that your youth is renewed like the eagle’s.

⁶ The LORD works righteousness
and justice for all the oppressed.

⁷ He made known his ways to Moses,
his deeds to the people of Israel:
⁸ The LORD is compassionate and gracious,
slow to anger, abounding in love.
⁹ He will not always accuse,
nor will he harbor his anger forever;
¹⁰ he does not treat us as our sins deserve
or repay us according to our iniquities.
¹¹ For as high as the heavens are above the earth,
so great is his love for those who fear him;
¹² as far as the east is from the west,
so far has he removed our transgressions from us.

¹³ As a father has compassion on his children,
so the LORD has compassion on those who fear him;
¹⁴ for he knows how we are formed,
he remembers that we are dust.
¹⁵ The life of mortals is like grass,
they flourish like a flower of the field;
¹⁶ the wind blows over it and it is gone,
and its place remembers it no more.
¹⁷ But from everlasting to everlasting
the LORD’s love is with those who fear him,
and his righteousness with their children’s children—
¹⁸ with those who keep his covenant
and remember to obey his precepts.

¹⁹ The LORD has established his throne in heaven,
and his kingdom rules over all.

²⁰ Praise the LORD, you his angels,
you mighty ones who do his bidding,
who obey his word.
²¹ Praise the LORD, all his heavenly hosts,
you his servants who do his will.
²² Praise the LORD, all his works
everywhere in his dominion.

Praise the LORD, my soul.

Radiant Dreams! Week 7

Week 7 on 1/4/11

Tuesday.

What an emotional day for me. too many things going through my mind. Trying to not freak out on finding one of my best friends CD's. My medical insurance not going through and when I woke up this morning, I felt I never even went to sleep. But after all of this... It's all worth it. My little Meatball is so worth everything, me being tired and all. How much did I dream of you. The amount of prayer your Daddy has been praying for you. Aunties and Uncles, families and friends, people we don't even know or met have been praying for you. You are so worth everything great and good. I am so thankful that God has given you to us. I cant wait to meet you... but come out when you are fully complete. I took a half day today for you, for rest. I truly love you and cant wait to meet you. My little Meatball... we love you so.

Happy Birthday Peter!

To my Peter,

You are such an amazing man. Full of life, hope, dreams, love and many more.

You are so strong and wise and have a huge heart.

I respect you, love you and I am so very thankful that you are my husband.

I am very proud of you and all that you are in Christ. The sacrifices you make for our family.

You are the most amazing husband in the whole universe. And when it is God's timing... you will be an amazing father.

You are a strong leader, my best friend, my lover... my first... my last... my everything (lol).

Thank you!

Happy Birthday my heart.
I love you Peter!